Full of nuggets

I started this post a few days ago and I finish it while watching the kids our by the pool.... James was full of glorious little nuggets that morning. While I was sitting and planning to enjoy my coffee there were other little wonderful things gifted to us.

"But be doers of the word, and not hearers only, deceiving yourselves. For if anyone is a hearer of the word and not a doer, he is like a man observing his natural face in a mirror; for he observes himself, goes away, and immediately forgets what kind of man he was." James 1:22-24 How often do we hear only but not act when we are called to? Are we given several chances to be a doer? I guess I kind of think so. I mean we didn't go right out at the first sign of adoption and adopt the first kid in sight. I think for some people it is more of a journey. Is this what God has really called us to do? Then acting on it. ...and then there was this.... James 1:27 NKJV 27 Pure and undefiled religion before God and the Father is this: to visit orphans and widows in their trouble, and to keep oneself unspotted from the world. I think it speaks for itself.

"But let PATIENCE have its perfect work..." James 1:4

If you know me- at all- you know I am very patient in some areas and not patient in others. Gimme a room full of children, I am flippin' Mother Theresa...ok too far-ish. You all so know I am dripping with sarcasm, hiiii:) Anywho, ask me to wait for something, it just kills me. I have a million and one questions. Why, who, what, where, how long, how come , the possibilites are endless!!!!
I have had times in my life where I have had waiting trials before, where it was clear I was to wait for one reason or another. Or maybe the whole point of what was going on was to make me wait, to teach me more on patience. You would think I would have gotten the message...message.not.recieved.

"My bretheren, count in all as joy when you fall into various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces patience."

I would say I am experiencing a trial, and one that is bound to teach me patience. Have you ever had someone tell you that you can't drive for 6 mo? Welcome to my world. When I had the seizure last month I knew it would happen. I had a feeling after it happened that even though there was no aura, that I could pinpoint, no more Harley (my dog) to start acting weird when my body gets off, I already knew what caused it. I was right. As I sat in my neuro appt. my dr. asked if there had been any added stress lately, I nodded saying I recently lost my Aunt. I may bottled up my emotions concerning that. She then asked if I had been getting enough rest, and something about excercise I think. Which was when the hubs pipes us with "yea she was getting like hardly any sleep and getting up to work out at like 5 am. Basically everything I had thought contributed, did. Now what I am learning from all of this, well it seems to be a forced lesson in slowing down. Especially since I can't drive.
Am I sad about not driving, I think I was frusterated last night, annoyed is more like it. But you know the song... I fought the law and the law won. Well I am not going to do that lol. Too much is at risk, and besides, doesn't He know what is better than Me? If He wants me home right now, and taking things easy, then maybe there is something really awesome on my homefront? And if not, I am saving some major gas money!!

FB vs a Blog

So yes I am on FB but you have seen nothing of this on there, why is that?
Well, I am feeling cautious. I know nothing of how this works, I know nothing of what I can say or not say according to the state, I really don't know what to do from here except continue with our licensing process. But what I do know is that I need an outlet for thoughts, for everthing that is going on in my head. I don't think that I will say anything on FB, too public and what if this doesn't work out?
I ask any of you who read or follow to please keep all questions and comments to the blog.... at least for now:)

The Road Unknown

There are so many questions swarming in my mind about the road we will travel, the when's, the why's, the how's. Those questions spawn other questions. And when I let my mind wander it will just spin around and around. I have to just get back to where I know is the right path, the one God is leading. I just need to remember that all things will work out for His glory, no matter what the situation.

A Prayer Answered...

"Be anxious for nothing, but in everything by prayer and supplication, with thanksgiving, let your requests be made known to God; and the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds through Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6

I can say that we have been praying, daily for the daughter that is out there somewhere born already, or maybe about to be born, maybe even about to be created! We have prayed for her health, for a blanket of protection in whatever circumstances she is in. What we thought was going happen was one day we would recieve a call to go and pick up a child and maybe that child would end up being our daughter, what has started to unfold is much better. God knows the end from the begining and HIS plans are far greater. So what  has His plan been looking like for us this past month and why have you not been hearing anything else about our adoption journey???!!!
Well it is the same reason I switched the blog to private....

As it turns out God did not have an unknown child waiting for us, but someone that we already knew. A family member, and while this poses a whole host of different challenges understanding family and new roles, we are so very thankful that God chose US!!
This beautiful child was born to a family member I would consider a best childhood friend. One you could always pick up with right where you left off. Unfortunately, things in her life did not go so well. In a perfect world we would be sitting on the beach with the family watching our children play together, laughing and catching up. That is not ever going to happen. What is happening is that OUR family has been called to adopt, and this lovely little girl is on her way to becoming "available." We too are "available."

We feel like she is the answer to what we have been praying for. I admit sometimes when I look at her it makes me a little sad, I miss her mother. She is so cute and she looks a lot like her mother. I wonder if she will call us momma and daddy eventually. But for now she is just enjoying a vacation with her family....

Lazy lunches are fun

I do value eating around the table, don't get me wrong, we did it this morning for breakfast. But sometimes lazy lunches are fun.  Eating, giggling at a funny show, it is music to my soul.

Are all those kids yours?!? Exclaimed the candy lady.

As usual we packed up and headed into town to get the kids candy and a special thing before leaving. We always get them a shirt or something like that and this year we found these really cute jackets, they will be perfect for the fall or chilly nights.
While checking out the lady looks at everyone then at me and says..."are all these kids yours?"
I've noticed that three is an acceptable number to have, but once you blow past that you are weird. Like why would you want so many kids? oh, I don't know why do you want so many dogs, cats, shoes, brand name purses you never use, and useless opinions you like to share? Hmmm I guess that stuff gets irritating huh? Oh well, lucky for me and my family we choose to do what God calls us to do, not what others think is acceptable:)