And then there were four...

Today has been a great day! Got chores done, made cards for a sweet girl, and waited on said girl.
As I sit here with the oldest three I wonder what future days will hold. what trials, what excitements.
But for now, I will just sit back and enjoy...

But of course!

Of course, the day after I add several new people to the blog, the computer dies out. Completely. It is over. Dead. Done. So if the entries are short, or weird, it's because all I have is my phone. So stick with me.

Life on the crazy train...

Well peeps I would love to tell you that I sit around all day and eat bon bons, drink lattes, and haven't a care in the world. But well... that would be a lie. And if that is your life, bring me a latte!! Life here is never dull. Never.
Yesterday was our 9th wedding anniversay. Yes 9 years of wedding bliss. We never fight, never look sideways at eachother, never raise our voices...oh wait, that is the OTHER, couple. Ya know the one that doesn't exist. We how ever have had a few downs, but have had WAY MORE ups. I love this man of mine. He is super rad. (is rad coming back, if not I wish it would. that would be rad, i wonder how many times I can say rad before people think I'm weird) Anyways, back to yesterday... we were going to have this amazing date night until the stupid allergies got the best of me. Man I hate this time of year. Re-do to be coming soon. stay tuned.
So what else has been going on, well we are moving quickly with Little Miss. We had in the works another visit, but now this visit may be the last. We are praying she gets to stay. There is all this legal stuff that seems to need to fall into place, and hopefully-for her- it does.We have much to do with getting her ready for school, acclimating her to our family, we are just so excited. Everything here in the house is ready... just waiting for the little girl to fill it up.
I will say that there are some aspects, regarding family that make me a little nervous. Will everyone be accepting of what is going on? How will they react? Can they put themselves aside and understand what is in the best interest of Little Miss? All I know is that we are doing what is right for us and our family, we are being obedient, and looking out for the best interest of all of our children. I can only pray that others will understand that and respect that.

sunny days

So my Mom has been here the past two weeks basically, and it has been a blast. I would say that I have been enjoying restful lazy days, and in some ways that is true. We have had our fair share of afternoons by the pool with the kiddos, but I have also been totally taking advantage of her being here by getting loads of junk around the house. My house is really in great shape now. All that is left is the girls room... yes girls. Ya sure I know nothing is final yet, but whether it is little miss S that joins us or another girl it will be a girls room at some point:) So now all I have is just to keep up on the day to day stuff. WHich don't get me wrong is no small thing. But I am glad for it. I sometimes wonder if my Mom thinks I have bit off more than I can chew. lol. I think we are just cut from different molds. She likes things a little less busy, I love lots going on all at the same time. I thrive on being busy.
I think though what I have learned in times of high stress, such as when my Aunt died is that there somes a point when instead of not talking, or feeling like I need to hold things in for the benefit of others, to talk to someone. My way of  coping through that was to control what I could, how much I worked out, which at that moment was a little too much. Though one would think with all of that working out I would have at least slimmed down a little more, I mean..sheesh!! But anyways... learning, always learning.
I am ready to get back to the way things were, my family routines. I am slightly annoyed that things have to be altered until dec. I am annoyed that I have to inconvience others for rides until then. But if I want to go to the gym, I am stuck, I have to. At least while it is still hot out. But what can ya do? Just wait...
So while mom was here, we have worked out, taken the kids to a movie, cleaned this house like 2 crazy cleaning fairies, enjoyed some pool days, it has been a super blast! I can't wait until they are back in the state again. Right now the boys are over at Tracie's house probably trying to whoop their granny's booties. Good times right there...good times.

A morning "quiet" time

So it is Monday morning, I sit out here with Liv on her potty, my glorious cup of joe, trusty bible, and The Fresh Beat Band. That is how a quiet time roles in my house. Nash is still asleep, well he was, actually now as I am typing this he has just woken up and is coming out grabbing his coffee and says "are you blogging." haha But previously it was just us girls. Not a totally typical morning as I have the carpet rolled up because I am desperately trying to get this cute two year old to pee in her potty:/

It seems like this journey we are on is, well just that, a journey. Ever changing, every developing, ups and downs. We have known that there would be court cases coming up but just didn't know when, we just learned that the first one is soon. I am excited and nervous all at the same time. As I was praying this morning I just asked God please, let Your will be done in all of this. We are just here to serve, whatever the outcome, we are willing. In the morning Nash and I usually read together, we are reading from James right now, but since I was on my own I just opened to wherever I had my marker in last, because I am lazy ok. I didn't feel like going to get my phone from the bedroom which has my indivdual study on it and so I just opened up, come on ya know ya do it to sometimes, it is fun a mystery ya don't know what you will get:) Well here is what I got.
Isaiah 41
In this chapter there are two uses of a courtroom scene to make a point. They are both used when talking about false gods and also about The rising up of Cyrus as ruler, my point was that I just found it interesting that there were TWO courtroom scenes in the one chapter I read this morning. And then there was the bit that stuck with me which I will share with you all now...

"I have chosen you and have not cast you away:

Fear not, for I with you.

Be not dismayed, for I am your God.

I will strenthen you,

Yes I will help you,

I will uphold you with My righteous right hand."

Isaiah 41: 10

So there ya go, this is what I have to believe. A child was chosen. Not cast away, we were chosen for her.

Makin a list and checkin it twice...

So I have this huge OCD list of everything that I want to do around the house and everything the state wants me to do around the house and I am like 2 rooms away from being done. And I am doing all of this while trying to potty train Baby O. It's ok, you can say it, I am super mom. No I am super-timed Mom. I am doing it all while MY MOMMY is in town and she is helping, oh how I heart her. She is giving me warm fuzzies this week.  But it feels good to not only have the house back in order, after my seizure things got kinda crazy around here, but even in tip top order!!

Now on to other news... we have a visit date set. And we are so excited!! It is a few weeks away, but I am a little glad about that because that will give us time to get the room in order and all that kind of stuff. Plus, I know that waiting is all apart of the process. wait. wait wait.
There has been a song stuck in my head lately...
While I'm waiting I will serve You
While I'm waiting I will worship
While I'm waiting I will not faint
I'll be running the race even while I wait....

little bit by little bit.

As I am sitting here right now I have a sweet four, almost five year old, cozied up next me, and I wonder how exactly does one start a blog entry. Really? I mean this is kind of a journal, a journey, a family snipet of sorts. So how do you start each little bit? I have no idea. And what exactly is too much to put out in here. I guess since I control who sees this I can put what I want, but at the same time this is the online community so I do feel the need to be somewhat reserved. At least for now.

Ok, now for the updates...
Our first visit with Little Miss was great. I know I didn't do much blogging that week at all, but if you are friends with me on FB you saw several pics so quit whining! I do know that this was percieved as merely a vacation and therefore we recieved what was probably "vacation" behavior maybe, but maybe not.  God knows what He is doing here in our lives and we are just along for the ride. We have already come so far from where I imagined we would be. God's hands are amazing.

We are now working for a second visit, and we are so excited. We are feverishly working away on things here at home. It seems like the checklist that we have is breeding or something. I swear I check one thing off and two more appear! So even though it seems like here visit is far off, it is actually a blessing a little bit because we will be able to get all of our household checklist done. Then we just have to wait for inspection! That is how it is I have noticed. Hurry up and wait, hurry up and wait...and wait, and wait. And when you hate waiting, it really stinks.

Reading peeps, there aren't many of you as I am keeping this very private right now, I ask this of you..
Please pray for speediness in the areas of paperwork, and all the behind the scenes stuff.
I ask you to pray for her heart and ours, that God will do His perfect will with our entire family.
And finally I ask you to pray for a smooth transition.