Life on the CRAZYTRAIN!!

So I'm just sitting here with my coffee, got to sleep until 8 am- whoop whoop-  and I wonder, hmmm where shall I start. I mean seriously peeps, everyday is a new adventure in crazytown. I never know what is going to happen next in this place. Life might be crazy, but it sure is grand! I realize that I have not been super great about blogging here recently, buuutttt sometimes when I am just sitting down in the evening and it is 9pm I just want to veg out to the tv, watch me some Big Brother. Don't judge me.  So why don't we have a little catch up sesh and I just dish about the goings on here....

This week we have had a dr. appt, a counselor appt, a licensor appt, all within two days. About a million loads of laundry, and a few bits of drama thrown in for good measure. ok, I have been sitting here typing this one past sentence for like 15 minutes, I think I just don't even know where to start. I should really try to start doing a daily log again. Maybe it would be best to go person by person. That seems to be the easiest way to focus my thoughts. lol

Nash and I- This week Nash ...Let's just stop right here, this blog was started almost one week ago. And you can see how far I got. Here I am trying to finish it. I am desperately hurrying before Nash gets home because as soon as he gets home I am going to my Foster/adopt meeting that I can't wait to go to. He should have been home by now but his bowling league is going long. Most tuesday nights, I wouldn't mind. Tonight I mind. So ok, back to the update on us. We are overall ok. We are in desperate need for a date, and we are also trying to take time for each of us to enjoy time to ourselves. Hence the bowling league. Today I went to work. I am getting back out in the teaching population as a sub. Getting my name out there. I subbed at JJC and I loved it. I really hope I can get a job there one day.
HN- I really still feel like we are in the back to school up swing. I have all these balls I have to juggle and luckily HN is super good about sitting down and doing his homework. The other two are still learning. And funny as it sounds so am I. I am still learning to remember get them all in, sit them all down get out snack, do the homework, then go for whatev. Getting these routines down are hard and are taking more time than I thought which really frusterates me.

HW is loving kindergarten. He loves his teacher, she is the same one that HN had and so we love her too.I would say my biggest trouble with kindergarten is remembering to be out when the bus gets there. I know as I type it that sounds horrible, but even if I am doing dishes in the house and the bus gets here they have to have a visual on me, which is super awesome he can't be let off if I am not out there. Well when you are the really forgetful mom and you are in the laundry room, or out in the backyard at drop off time you get the beep beep from the bus driver, or the irritated phone call.  I best be making him some cookies. Other than that, HW is doing great in kinder.

Little Miss, she is doing quite well. We had one set back during a phone call, but I would consider it a learning experience. We now know what we have the right to do, where before we felt we didn't. You see here, like physically over here I feel as though we are alone. All of the rest of the family is over there, and they all talk to eachother. All the cousins talk. They have more contact with eachother. No one comes to see us here. Though we are really only about 3.5 hours away, maybe 4.  And while I was thinking that a negative thing, I have recently started to think that is a good thing. One thing that is unfortunate about it is that they don't understand sometimes our position on things with Little Miss, they just don't always understand everything or know all of the facts. I know that I am being very vague here, I just don't want to get into it right now. Little Miss is doing great here. She drew me a pic yesterday, tiptoed down the hall and layed it down at the edge of the hall and piterpattered off. I will post the pic on here but it was a pic of me sticking my tongue out and it said "mom" above it. That is my first Mom picture. Makes me smile just thinking about it.

Liv- is cute as ever. Always quick with the comeback, especially for a two year old. We have decided to take a potty training break. Yes, I know laugh it up. But despite my best efforts, it just wasn't working. So I am just going to break for a good month or so and then try again. I thought that I would have all of this time on my hands when it was just her and I, but so far it has been super busy. I hope it slows down so I can just enjoy her more every little minute.

Mr. 18- Well I don't even know where to start or if I want to start with this. I hoped things would be different, but so far it is much of the same. I also think I am not ready to go too much into this right now due to the people on here, but I am disappointed, frustrated, and irritated. Obviously not what I thought I would be.

Well since it has only taken about 2 weeks to write this post I will try to keep up a little better. lol I am going to finish my coffee and head off to church.

Mr. 18

Oh Mr. 18. Sweet Mr. 18. How I want to shake thee by thee neck and say pull thee head out of thee buttocks. You Sir, are a man-child. Not a man yet. But it sure is cuuuute when you say you are!!! I want to pinch those lil cheeky weekies and give you a smoochy woochy and say say No Sir you are not quite a Man yet, but keep tryin!!

Ok, in all seriousness my hotty hubby made a valid point last night. God sure knew what he was doing when he sent Mr. 18 here. Having him here divides our attention from Little Miss, helps keep things in perspective. It helps us make sure that we are not focusing on every little thing with her, and just meshing her into family life. (which overall seems to be going well) I believe that if we didn't have things to worry about with Mr. 18 I would be focusing much more energy on the littles and they just don't need me hovering. Tending and taking care, yes obviously. But hovering, ya no. haha. Watching them playing together and figuring things out during this transition has been really neat.

I feel like Mr. 18 will do a lot of growing this year. Or at least has the opportunity for growing. He wants to be grown up so badly, to make all of his own choices to much. But he is just not ready for it. He is not ready spiritually, emotionally, financially, or academically. BUT he COULD be. He has only been here about a month and he has the potential to grow so much. If he set his mind to it, he could have straight A's and do the sports that he desired. But HE has to want it. We are just here to support him and that is something that he is learning. I am not going to hold his hand, call his teachers, ask for extra time. He is learning about responsibility. and about consequences. I just want him to come away from this year with an understanding of responsibility, respect, consequence. If he chooses to go to college he has to learn that the prof.'s don't give you extra time and they get paid whether you come to class or not. They don't really care. I pray that he continues asking questions about God, that he continues seeking out His Word, and finding his own walk.

Sometimes Mr. 18 just cracks me up, like last week we were watching the Duggars and he says "I want to have a bunch of kids like the Duggars."  The dude was totally serious. Just matter of fact, he wants a ton of kids. baahahahaha.

The first trip

Friday we left to head over the mountains for Uncle Tom's Memorial. While we had planned to stay at Lj's house a series of unfortunate events lead to pleasant nights stay with B&B. They have plenty of room for all of us, as we are no small crowd now. 4 kids, 1 teenager, Momma and Daddy.

Uncle Tom's service was really wonderful. It was so great getting to hear the different stories about him, and then Aunt Linda put together a slideshow which was so nice. The pictures were just all categorized and very interesting to watch.

After the sevice we went to Aunt Linda's house to visit. We were able to chat with cousins and let our kids play together. It was just so nice.

I did have some nervousness about the first trip, how would it go? How would Little Miss handle it? How would her big Sis handle it? How would the family handle the new rankings?

To my pleasant surprise all was well. She was happy to see everyone and everyone was happy-of course- to see her. There was no drama with what we are creating as our family dynamic. We have had no trouble since coming home. Which quite honestly, was my biggest worry. I had been having major temper tantrums from her, and we seem to have plateued (sp), and leveled out. Things are fairly smooth now. Which I am soooooo THANKFUL for!!!!!!

Overall I just really enjoyed being with my family, I wish I had longer.

Yes, I am still here...

"Don't have anything to do with foolish and stupid arguments, because you know they produce quarrels. And the Lord's servant must not be quarrelsome but be kind to everyone, able to teach, not resentful. Opponents must be gently instructed, in the hope that God will grant them repentance leading them to a knowledge of the truth, and that they will come to their senses and esecape from the trap of the devil, who has taken them captive to do his will."

2 Timothy 2:23-26

 

So I sit staring at these verses for awhile. Then I get up, go bathe 4 ADORABLE children, check facebook, start the 4 said children with their evening routine, sit back down and stare some more at the verses. Ok, yes. I do think that these are for me, I mean I keep reading and re-reading them. But in exactly what areas I am unsure yet. There are some obvious ones, but there are some deeper ones too. Some areas dealing with my own stinking, rotten heart where I would not want to deal with my "opponents" very "gently". Then there are some people that I can think of that I would like to tape the first half this to their head...ugh as a gentle reminder of course. It's just like hello, it is written out right there, like don't even bother with foolish and stupid arguments, you know nothing good will come of it!

 This is us on any given night .  Just making faces at the computer entertaining ourselves. Really, it is quite, entertaining.

....So that was last night. That was as far as I got with it. It was then time to put those lovely children to bed. So here I sit, same bat-time, same bat-channel, trying again to blog. For some reason it seemed a little easier before school started to be blogging, maybe we are still just needing to get into the swing of things, get into a new routine. At least it feels that way. Life seems just so chaotic right now. I need to get my groove back.
Ok, I just tried, for quite some time I might add- to upload pics from the computer to this blog. But for SOME reason it won't let me. It only let's me either take a picture or load them from my phone. This is really annoying because I have some SUPER CUTE pics that I took today. lame.

uh..so yea the whole point of this post has now rattled off and gone away in various other directions but through events of today I am still glad for this verse. I am always glad for what God gives me as He always knows just when I am going to need it. What I need to remember is to constantly be in the word, always be seeking HIS direction in everything,





My day

Being sick

I hate being sick. Lots. I'm annoyed that I have no voice, no energy, and what feels like an elephant on my chest.
Here is a prayer request...quick healing.
Thanks guys
And yes, that is a pic of my view and yes I'm watching Felicity....what of it :)

Yesterday

Here is what any given day in our house can look like. If you are wondering where the pic of a muddy Little Miss is, she was on her bike too fast and I couldn't get one:)