going public

Well I have thrown the idea of taking my blog of the private setting for awhile now. But I will admit that fear has been what has kept me back.
Fear of particular family members seeing my most intimate thoughts- concerning the adoption.
Fear of sharing more of myself as in being put out there where just anyone could search and find me.
And then I realized, this, dear Momma, is not about you. It is about God. It is about what God is doing in your life and why should you not rest all of your self on Him. Don't just lean on Him when you get tired, lay there! Snuggled up and nestled in you Daddy's lap. I can't think of a better way to describe what he wants for all of us and I need to remember that kind of faith as we are walking through this and as I struggle with all of these challenges.

Hebrews 11:6 (NKJV)

"But without faith it is impossible to please Him, for he who comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of those who diligently seek Him."

 

I want to seek whatever God has for me and I want to have faith that is pleasing to Him. The hubs and I know that whatever God's plans are going to be are so much better than our own if we can just. let. go.

So even for me, if that means letting this go public, I am feeling a peace about it now. If you would have asked me a month ago I would have said no way. I just know that there is a need for more information out there. Whether it is another Momma sharing her journey or local info, I can't deny when I have been uproached twice in one week looking for more information about foster and foster adoption.

So Lord, I give even my piddely little blog to You. Please use it to glorify You.

 

And we know that all things work together for good to those who love God, to those who are the called according to His purpose. Rom 8:28